My reading and reviewing is suffering, but it's nothing compared to the suffering I'm experiencing right now.
You see, I lost my 'little girl', my darling cat, my Molly. She had cancer, and it had been hiding until very recently. It was discovered on Monday. And that's when I spent almost an hour saying goodbye to her. The vet was kind and compassionate (he recently lost his beloved dog); he gave me options, but told me that it would just prolong her suffering.
I first met her when she was about 8 weeks old. My daughter brought her home, and when I saw the little thing, I immediately said, "I will not fall in love with it! I refuse!" (we had just lost a cat about a month before). So, as I stomped off to the kitchen, the little black and white bundle followed me. Of course I fed her. Of course I stared at her.
Of course I fell in love with her.
She has been with me for (almost) eleven years; she would have celebrated her birthday just this November.
But life is cruel. Life takes away the ones you love, and I loved her to the moon and back.
|My Brave Little Toaster investigating the dog|
Molly is the inspiration for the children's book I'm writing. She is (and always will be) the president of the Evil Plan Bureau, an association created to get rid of our visiting dog, who, by the way, simply adored the little cat.
Every time I look at my 'reading chair', I picture her sleeping there. But it hurts now to know that that was the last place she slept.
It hurts to lose a best friend, especially one who was so devoted to me. I'll miss her 'bee noises', that little deep trill she made whenever she jumped onto my lap.
Although most people might scoff at the notion of a 'Rainbow Bridge', I do not. I know that she has crossed it and is now playing with my other beloved animal friends, chasing butterflies and begging for a nice bowl of milk. She might even be waiting for me.
But today, I did something I thought I'd never do: I asked her to come back to me.
And she will.
They always do.
Rest in peace, my sweetest little friend.